Sometimes I’m amazed at how erratic I am. I mean, am I just really emotional at the moment, or is there something deeper under it all?
I’m not going to stress it too much. I feel much better right now. Talk about emotional see-saw. I don’t really know what’s going to happen with any of it. I know that I feel considerably better about the man, with whom I do enjoy being a partner in crime, and with whom I’m don’t want any deeper involvement. He’s a great friend, but what he’s willing to offer me and what I’m willing to offer him is just friendship. That’s it, that’s all. I’m pretty retarded sometimes. I think that were there anyone random just reading this blog from start to finish, they’d probably not want to have anything to do with me. She’s CRAZY.
I talked to my mother this evening. She thinks that I need to just relax and disentangle myself from men in general. The great motherly advice: how can you truly love someone if you don’t know yourself? Thanks mom. I’ll keep it in mind. She also made a quip at me for being an attention-seeker. Like I didn’t know that already.
