You know sometimes when there are so many emotions in one day that it surprises you?
I think today was my most bipolar day ever. I’m exhausted because of it. I don’t know how I feel right this moment aside from very very tired. But, I’ll be okay. Even if I have to go through more insane days like this, at least I’m being honest with myself. I hope that the precise details of what went down don’t happen again though.
I don’t want to be overly dramatic. I don’t want to mess my life up any more. I hope this works. If I listen to myself and watch and pay more attention, then I should be able to keep myself from repeating the same patterns. I hope. And I’m not just saying it. I am trying. I wish that it would come quicker, but I am trying really hard, and you can’t do better than your best. And practice helps. I should improve with time. I WILL!
I have so much love. I want to give it. It’s funny what people do for love. I almost lost mine today and I actually felt like my heart was being broken.
I have to sleep now. I’ll probably sleep like a corpse.
I hope I have good dreams.
